“Repairs her smiles, awakens every grace,
And calls forth all the wonders of her face”
Enough about the emotions that you’re already familiar with, now let’s come to the core of the issue. Why? Why?Why? Why is it so difficult so difficult to move on? Why is impossible to hate that person, even after the absolute hell he/she has put you through? Well, I’m here to provide you an answer that at least some of you might be able to relate to.
But this is just one side of the coin (the brighter side), and there are times when the coin flips over to the darker side, and you’re unable to flip it back into place (unless you probably have a time machine). One mistake, one misunderstanding, one tug and the whole necklace falls off. Endless arguments, infinite helplessness, and never-ending tears become a part of your life. It feels like a nightmare, one that goes one even after you wake up. The past and the future become blurred, and you’re trapped in the stormy present and you have no idea of what happened or what you’re going to do. And then you start wondering why it hurts so much.
I’ll tell you the answer.This is because once you’ve started thinking from your heart, you just can’t go back to thinking from your mind. And because the heart is famous from often taking irrational decisions, you can’t bring yourself to stop caring, even if caring means watching your heart split into pieces. This is why, even after you work tirelessly to build a wall around your heart and one look, one photo, one book or one word makes those walls crumble. This is why, despite knowing the consequences, you would still repeat the process once more given the chance. This is why, no matter how much time passes, you just can’t stop wishing the best for some people.
But don’t worry, human. After all, it is said that the most beautiful smile is the one which makes its way through tears. Don’t worry, everything will be alright. Keep trying and trying and one day, maybe it won’t hurt so much and you might be able to smile through tears and say, “I’m fine”.
Written by Aneri Doshi
What makes my heart race? Books, Coffee and Rain